Rainy Day Ramblings

Letters from a Bipolar Mother Review and Guest Post

In "Letters From A Bipolar Mother", Alyssa Reyans tells the story she's never been able to tell her children: of how she lost them in a battle with her own mental illness. she shares with them - and the world - what the mind of a woman suffering bipolar depression looks like, how the darkness she battled on a daily basis almost won, and how, years later, she found the courage to claw her way out of the abyss. Covering a span of five years, Alyssa Reyans shares both her pain and strength in a struggle against an incurable illness that many women today also share.
ebook, 86 pages
Published February 18th 2012 by Alyreyans Press

 

Now before you run away thinking, "Why on earth would I want to read a book like that?" I am going to tell you, because it has an important message.  I thought the same thing when I was approached by a fellow blogger and asked to host Alyssa.  She told me this was a difficult book and that I didn't have to read it, but curiousity won and I read the whole thing in about an hour.  Yes, this is a difficult topic, but if you know anyone, friend or family member that battles with depression, then you will want to check this out.  If you now someone caught in the dark struggle of bipolar disorder, at the very least refer them to Alyssa's site.  As a sufferer she can impart some wisdom to someone finding their way in the dark.  Now here is my review:

Four Stars: A book that tackles a tough, misunderstood topic.

I admit, I was hesitant to read this book because, well let's face it, reading books with weighty subject matter can often be difficult.  I wasn't going to read this one, but then my inner psychologist was itching to take a peek.  I ended up reading it in one sitting.  This book is an emotional roller coaster.  Alyssa takes you through the highs and lows of  living with bipolar disorder.  No, it isn't pleasant and it is hard to understand what a person suffering from depression goes through, but Alyssa manages to take your hand and lead you into the belly of the beast.  Her life is full of heartbreak and tragedy.  Starting at a young age when she was molested by her own father.  At a time when abuse and depression were just beginning to come to light. Unfortunately, she lived through it when it was still okay to sweep it under the rug and ignore it.  Consequently, Alyssa was forced to deal with the fall out of the abuse on top of battling an illness she didn't know she had.  Two suicide attempts later and she is still reeling, trying to secure her footing.  Then as a teenager she finds herself as the mother of two young children, trying to be a good mother while doing her best to keep her world from spiraling out of control.  Little did she know that soon she would make the decision to leave her children with their father for a short time, never realizing it would be the last time she saw them.  Now years later, Alyssa properly diagnosed, has finally comes to terms with her illness.  She accepts responsibility for her actions and avoids placing blame on her mental illness.  A truly courageous and remarkable step. She continually fights a daily battle, like anyone who suffers from depression can tell you, there are good days and bad.  It is a constant struggle to keep the beast at bay.  Separated by time and distance across an ocean of misunderstanding, Alyssa wrote this novella to reach out to her children and let them know that despite the painful past she has always loved them and always will.  Not knowing if her words will ever reach them, she hopes that in sharing her story she can climb a little further out of the belly of the beast, known as depression.  Hopefully, by sharing her story she can help others struggling with this debilitating illness.  If you suffer from, or know someone with depression, then you will understand how this beast ravages and destroys families.  I hope that her words will help others and that there will be continued strides made toward curing and spreading awareness on depression.  Alyssa is braver than she gives herself credit.  I truly wish her continued success in her valiant fight. I pray that her words will find her children.  Good luck Alyssa, thanks for being courageous enough to share your story.

Favorite Quotations:

"If for one second, you release control or look away, the monster takes control of your life, and it could be days, weeks, months or even years, before you realize you have fallen back into the abyss and once again have to dig your way out."

"I want you to know if this illness ever touches your life, there is someone who understands."

"Except you cannot outrun insanity, anymore than you can outrun your own shadow."

"My sanity succumbed to the internal chaos, and I floated through life.  I was a mere passenger in the shell of my body.  I did not control it.  It controlled me."

Now some words from the author Alyssa Reyes:

Thanks to Heidi for having me here today. It’s still weird to see myself counted amongst “writers”. Yes I am self publishing my memoir, but when I look around at all of the talented authors out there, it’s hard to apply that label to myself.  I call myself a word doodler instead. I think that seems more appropriate. I doodle words upon the page. By being a word doodler I don’t feel the heavy burden of having to carry around the title of “writer”. It allows me to continue jotting down my story, which is not always an easy thing to do. Writing is difficult. Doodling is easy. Maybe it’s a trick of the mind or a play on words, but it helps me to always push through those moments when the words seem to have dried up. During those moments I just keep doodling and eventually the whole picture becomes clear. The words take on a life of their own and I just join them for the ride. Allowing them to take me wherever they want to go. Not forcing or trying, just doodling. I use to think someday I might be a writer, but for now I’m having too much fun doodling. I think I may just remain a word doodler. There’s less pressure and more chocolate. And really who wouldn’t want a job that involves chocolate?

I’m also having a giveaway. There will be 3 ecopies of my book, Letters from A Bipolar Mother, given away. You can enter via rafflecopter. The giveaway will end on 23rd and you can enter here through Heidi’s blog or at my website.  Also if you’d like to join my mailing list, all members who join prior to the launch of the second book in the series, Chronicles of A Fractured Life, will automatically receive a free ecopy of Book Two. 

Thanks Alyssa for sharing your story! Alyssa is offering copies of her book if you wish to enter here is the link. 

Graffiti Moon by Cath Crowley

Senior year is over, and Lucy has the perfect way to celebrate: tonight, she's going to find Shadow, the mysterious graffiti artist whose work appears all over the city. He's out there somewhere—spraying color, spraying birds and blue sky on the night—and Lucy knows a guy who paints like Shadow is someone she could fall for. Really fall for. Instead, Lucy's stuck at a party with Ed, the guy she's managed to avoid since the most awkward date of her life. But when Ed tells her he knows where to find Shadow, they're suddenly on an all-night search around the city. And what Lucy can't see is the one thing that's right before her eyes.
Hardcover, 272 pages
Published February 14th 2012 by Knopf Books for Young Readers (first published August 1st 2010)

 

Five Stars: A book with enticing and captivating writing! You want this one on your shelf! 

 

Lucy is celebrating her last day of high school.  A night out on the town with her girlfriends is a perfect way to end the day.  She is at the crossroads of life.  Lucy is leaving her childhood behind, ready to step into the adult world.  Tonight, she wants more than anything to find the enigmatic Shadow, a graffiti artist.  His works adorn the sides of many buildings, they are swirls of colors in dreary places.  A splash of vision in the city streets.  Lucy is certain that a boy who can paint such visionary pieces of art is the one for her.  She is inexplicably drawn to his work, she must find the one called, Shadow. 

Ed, also known as Shadow, is also at an intersection in his life.  He dropped out of school in the tenth grade.  He was lucky enough to find employment at a paint store, taken in by a kindly, elderly gentleman named, Bert.  Working at the paint store gave him purpose and access to paint.  With a can of paint in hand, the world is his canvas.  He sprays the thoughts that swirl in his head and brings them to life.  Now, with the death of his boss, he is out of a job, unemployed and unsure what to do with his life.  Chance brings Ed and Lucy together for one magical night.  Lucy insists on hunting for Shadow, not knowing that he is standing next to her, but she doesn't even consider him as a candidate.  She and Ed have a rocky history, once he made her heart zing, then a date between the two ended catastrophically with an arse grabbing and a broken nose.  Can Ed make Lucy see the boy behind the Shadow?  Can a girl who loves art, glass blowing and drawing wishes in the air find love with a boy who spray paints the night?

What I Loved:

• First and foremost the writing.  Cath Crowley is one of those authors you won't forget. She is a word artist extraordinaire.  From the opening  paragraph, I was under her spell.  She takes the simplest words and paints them into sentences filled with magical beauty.  Her phrases will captivate and enchant you.  If you appreciate literary art, this is a book you must read.
• The characters, Lucy, Ed and Leo.  I liked that they were teenagers with their feet hesitantly stepping into adulthood.  Yet, they wavered, unsure of the correct path, and a little reluctant to leave the past behind.  For Ed he is struggling with losing Bert and his job, unable to find employment, he lacks confidence and self worth.  Leo, is trying to restore his broken heart and find an acceptable outlet for the snippets of poetry that flow in his head.  Lucy, longs to see her parents reunite.  She worries her parents will divorce after her dad has spent months living in the backyard shed.  She wishes for a chance at love, with someone who loves art as she does.  The best part about Lucy is she isn't afraid to speak her mind and stand up for herself, despite the sticky consequences.  Lucy can throw a mean punch!  These characters are awkward, shy and unsure of their futures, that is what makes them so realistic and easy to relate to.  
• Leo, a.k.a. Poet, his chapters are little splices of poetry that are simplistic, and yet they speak volumes.  I loved his poems! 
• As an American, I enjoyed immersing into the Aussie culture.  I liked learning little tidbits and sayings pertinent to Australia.  So much fun.
• I thoroughly loved that Ms. Crowley was able to take me back to my teenage days.  Lucy reminded me of what it was like to find a boy that sends thrilling tingles through your body.  Lucy still dreams, makes wishes, hopes for love and happy endings.  As adults sometimes we forget those shy, hesitant moments of first loves, it was fun to live vicariously through Lucy and remember the magic of youth.  
• I loved the art and the descriptions of Shadow's graffiti. I wished the book was illustrated, so I could see the works.  Yet, I think the pictures couldn't compare to the vivid, rich and detailed descriptions that Ms. Crowley colors with her words.  Her words are magic! 

And The Not So Much:

• There is not too much to complain about with this outstanding novel.  My only consideration was that the book is too short, I wanted more and the story is rather simplistic.  The entire book revolves around a one night adventure, so there is not much room for extensive plot development.
• This book has three points of view.  Lucy, Ed and Leo.  Leo's chapters were easy to detect because they were verses of poetry.  For some reason, and it may just be me, there were a couple of times in the book where I was confused on who was narrating. This was a minor problem though.

Graffiti Moon is one of those reads that will leave an indelible mark in your head.  This simple story of chasing shadows through the night will make you smile.  This book is a captivating literary work of art that you don't want to miss.  Set aside some time and dive into this memorable book.  You will come away happy that you read such an astounding work!  Go get your copy now! 

Favorite Quotations:

"I liked that he had hair that was growing without a plan.  A grin that came out of nowhere and left the same way."

"Paint sails and the things that kick in my head scream from the can to the brick.  See this, see this, see this.  See me emptied onto a wall."

"Mum says when wanting collides with getting, that's the moment of truth."

"I stayed there till the sun blurred the dark."

"The light coming over the buildings was burning back the night."

"The water was lower than it had been for a while because rain was starting to feel like a story people told."

"We'll meet and click and sit up all night and everything will tip out of me and into him and the other way around and while we're tipping the night will fade and the world will get pink and in that pinkness he'll kiss me."

"The definition of crazy is doing something close to the same thing twice and expecting a different end."

"You ever notice how the night changes shape?" ..."It starts out thick with people and sound and then gets thinner till in the middle there's almost nothing in it but you."

"My dad was a magician too.  Got in his car and disappeared."

"Dad says a boy needs a good sense of humor to get through his love life."

"Guys find snorting girls who run over them with bikes very sexy."

"Everything's hard to see when you've got your eyes closed."

"He works his way back to my mouth and my blood is hot glass, caramel and shiny, moving with his breath."

See what I mean about the writing..I could go on and on with favorite quotes! 

Tell Me Something Tuesday

It is Tuesday! Time for another rousing edition of the meme hosted by Cambria Hebert.

Every week a new question to answer on your blog. Add your link to Cambria's site and then check out the other responses. I love this meme. If you want to participate (you really should) head over to Cambria's blog and grab next week's question. 

Now this week's question: 

How do you feel about love triangles?

 

If you read my reviews you will know that I am not a big fan of love triangles.  In fact, it has gotten to the point where the prevalence of this sticky, three sided love affair has become so trite and worn out, that I find myself loathing them. Unless they are well written, I usually will lower my rating.  

Now, in the beginning I didn't mind the occurrence of a love issue involving three parties.  I was interested to see how they would resolve.  I think one issue I have with the triangle is that I am always rooting for the underdog, for instance: Twilight, I am in Jacob's corner the entire way...Iron Fey: Puck, how can you not love Puck! These are just two examples, but inevitably I am always drawn to the guy who ends up getting his heart ripped out. Perhaps, that is why I have developed such an intense distaste for love triangles. 

The biggest reason I disdain them, stems from the complete saturation of the Young Adult genre with the love interests that have a girl and two boys involved in an emotional tug a war. It has gotten to the point where they are so overdone, that I actually look for books with a simple boy meets girl and they fall in love relationship. I don't buy into the whole I am team A or B trend. I know I am in the minority but I just need a break from the three sided disease that infects books today. The only two exceptions I have are The Infernal Device series by Cassandra Clare and Unearthly series by Cynthia Hand.  Both of these ladies write love angles that are so well developed and believable that I actually am interested to see how they develop. Furthermore, the relationships are each so good, that I am remiss to pick who I want to get the lady. 

I guess I am exhausted to the point that I am beyond enjoying the whole love triangle scene until someone finds a way to breath some fresh life into an old idea.  How about a book with two girls and a boy caught in the three sided tangle for a change? 

There you have it! My ramblings on love triangles. How do you feel about them? Tell Me!  Please check out the guest post and giveaway from author Cameo Renae.

 

Guest Post and Giveaway with Cameo Renae

Yesterday I featured author Cameo Renae's book in my Bargain Book Bin.  If you missed my review of In My Dreams by Cameo Renae you can read it here. 

Renae's book is a touching tale of a boy who is trying to protect the girl he loves from beyond the grave.  A stroy that reminds us again that true love doesn't die. If you are a sentamentalist and a fan of the movie Ghost, you will love this poignant story.  Best part, you can grab an ebook on Amazon for $1.99, or stick around to enter to win a copy at the end of this guest post. 

Now here with a multi character post is Cameo and some of the characters from her book: Lizzie and Michael, the young lovers, parted by an untimely death and Liz's best friend Emily and their friend Tyler. Take it away gang:

 If you had to change something in your life what would it be?

 Lizzy – We ALL know what that would be… for Michael to be alive, of course.

Tyler – And me dead?

Lizzy – I didn’t say it… YOU did.

Tyler – But I know you were thinking it. 

Emily – Could you two please give it a rest?

Michael – Hello!? I’m still here!

Lizzy – But not physically. And that totally sucks - I can’t even touch you!  

*Lizzy tries to grab Michael’s arm but her hand goes right through him. She bursts into tears.*

Tyler – Dude… I’m so sorry.

Michael – It’s alright.

Lizzy – No! It’s not alright! *sobbing*

Emily - Heidi… Could we please move on to the next question?

  If you could meet anyone in history, who would it be and why?

Tyler – Ghangas Khan. Because he was totally kick ass.

Michael – Einstein… just because. 

Emily – Cinderella, because she went from rags to riches and got to marry a Prince.

*Tyler and Michael glance at each other, then burst into laughter*

Lizzy – Emily. Cinderella is make-believe. She’s not real. 

Emily – But I thought – 

Tyler – You thought wrong, babe.

Michael – Next question….

 What would describe your personality...give an inanimate object… Ex. I'm like a book....So much more inside once you get to know me.

Tyler –  I’m like a gun. Sometimes I’m loaded, sometimes not, but I always get my target.

Lizzy – Not every target. *sneers*

Tyler – Thanks for the reminder.

*Michael chuckles to himself*

Emily – Loaded? Tyler? 

Tyler – Not anymore, babe. It was just an analogy. I’m clean. Totally clean.

Michael – Well…I’m like a glimmer. Seriously. 

Lizzy – Well, I love the way you glimmer.

Michael – Thanks Liz. *They stare endlessly into each other’s eyes*

Emily – I like the way you glimmer too, but not as much as Lizzy does.

Tyler – And what about me? 

Emily – I like that you’re not loaded anymore. *Emily smiles – Tyler huffs*

Lizzy – I’d have to say that Emily… well…she’s like a grab-bag gift. You never know what to expect. 

*Emily glances at Lizzy with a dumbfounded look*

Lizzy – But she’s totally fun and my best-friend.

Emily – Thanks Lizzy! You’re the best… And Lizzy’s like a strawberry - pretty on the outside and sweet inside. 

Lizzy – Oooh-kay? *Raises eyebrows and shrugs* Thanks, Em. 

Emily – Of course! *winks* 

Tyler and Michael – NEXT! 

  Do have a special place to write or read?

Tyler – I don’t read OR write. 

Emily – That’s not good Tyler. You should try it. I write in my diary every day, and love to read in my bedroom.

Tyler – You have a diary?

Emily – Yep.

Tyler – Am I in it?

Emily – I’m not telling you! Hello! It’s a diary… you know… secret.

Lizzy – *Clears throat* I used to like to read at Lake Liz.*tears stream down face*

Michael – It’s okay, Liz. *trying to comfort her* 

Tyler – I said I was sorry, Liz.

Lizzy – *Sniffles and dries tears* I know… I’m still trying to deal with it all. 

 Have you ever experienced continuous writer's block? How did you escape?

Tyler – I think this one’s for Cameo Renae. She’s in the waiting room outside. 

Emily – Should we go and get her?

Lizzy – Yeah… we should.

Michael – I’ll get her! Hold on…

*Michael disappears, and re-appears a few seconds later with a distressed look on his face.*

Lizzy – What’s wrong?

Michael – I think she’s pissed cause’ I popped in and scared her.

*Cameo Renae walks in with her hand over her heart and shoots Michael a dirty look.*

Cameo – Michael, you scared the bejesus outta me! Don’t just appear unannounced like that! At least give me some kind of warning!  

Michael – Sorry. I didn’t mean to. 

Cameo – *Sighs* It’s alright. So what’s up?

Lizzy – Heidi has a question for you. 

Emily – Yeah… she wants to know if you’ve experienced writer’s block, and if you did… how’d you escape?

Cameo – Ummm- Well, I actually never experienced writer’s block for In My Dreams *knock-on-wood*, but I have had a bout with it on the new book I’m writing. If I get stuck, I usually go through the outline and pick a spot that I know I can write about, and then go back to the troubled spot later. 

Tyler – That’s a cool plan of attack. 

Cameo – Thanks. So… how did you guys do?

Tyler, Michael, Lizzy and Emily – Good.

Cameo – Cool.

Emily – Cameo, can I ask you a question?

Cameo – Sure Em. Shoot.

 Emily - Is Cinderella really make-believe?

*Cameo looks at all the others in the room with wide eyes. They shrug and roll their eyes.*

Cameo – Yes, honey. Cinderella is make-believe. Why?

*Emily sighs and slinks back into her chair.*

Emily – Nevermind. 

*Cameo glances at Heidi* I hope they behaved themselves. Thanks so much for letting us visit!

Thanks Cameo for visiting.  Now for the giveaway! Cameo Renae is offering an ebook copy of her book, In My Dreams.  Contest is open to all everyone just fill out the Rafflecopter form to enter.  See Contest Policies for all the information.  Good Luck!

 

 

 

Bargain Book Bin: In My Dreams by Cameo Renae

Time for another great find in my Bargain Book Bin!  This week's find:

In My Dreams by Cameo Renae

It was happening again. The dreams. The nightmares. It was something seventeen year-old Elizabeth "Lizzy" Hayes thought she'd outgrown; dreams that would come true; detailed premonitions of how people would die. This time she dreams about her boyfriend, Michael Young, and soon discovers that he's been found... dead.  Michael hasn't crossed over because he was murdered, and now his murderer is coming for Lizzy. His spirit won't rest until she is safe, and as a newbie spirit, the easiest way for him to make contact is through Lizzy's dreams. When she dreams, it's as if he hasn't died. Lizzy must learn to pull on her inner strength to survive horrifying events. Meanwhile, in the spirit world, Michael learns everything he can about his supernatural gifts to help. But will it be enough to save her?
ebook Published May 16th 2011 by Cameo Renae, via Smashwords (first published April 17th 2011)

1/2

Three and a Half Stars: A touching, heart felt romance for the sentimentalists.

Lizzy shudders awake, trembling as the remnants of her nightmare slide away.  Blinking she glances at the glaring, red numbers on her digital clock.  It is just a few minutes after six.  The clock seems to jeer at her as it marks off the seconds.  Each tick a jabbing reminder that Michael is over an hour late for their date.  He is never tardy and to be delayed on tonight of all nights.  He has a special anniversary surprise planned to mark their four years as a couple.  Michael and Lizzy have always been destined to be together.  They were childhood friends and high school sweethearts.  Her eighteenth birthday is just a few days away and they have so many budding plans for their promising future.  Where is he?  Desperately, Liz punches the speed dial on her cell.  Again it clicks to voice mail.  She tries to shake the feeling of unease.  A sharp, stabbing pain emanates from the back of her neck and a wave of nausea overtakes her.  A few minutes later she staggers to the couch and slips into an uneasy slumber.  When she opens her eyes, she is gliding down the darkened road in Michael's car, her fingers tightly intertwined in his.  At last Michael is finally here.  He draws her into the tight, protective circle of his arms and promises that she has his heart forever.  Why are his eyes so sad? Then the jarring sound of the phone fractures the dream.  Lizzy rouses to her cell buzzing with horrendous news.  Michael is dead!  Her life forever shattered.  Michael's death is just the beginning of the nightmare that haunts her while she is awake.  Someone is stalking her.  Can Michael somehow from beyond protect the girl he loves?

What I Liked:

• This is such a tender, poignant story.  The devotion between Lizzy and Michael will touch your heart.  There are so many sad, emotional moments in this story, I found myself blinking back the tears.  If you adore sweet, love stories then, In My Dreams will speak to you. In addition it tells the tale of forgiveness, second chances and redemption.  I appreciated the positive messages that this novel conveys.
• I enjoyed the additional supernatural elements in the story, the enigmatic Inuit Lucy Crow with her unique ability that allows her to interpret the whisperings she hears from the spirit world.  I was intrigued by the appearances of the protective white wolf with the sapphire eyes.  I was certainly surprised to learn its origins.  I loved the guardian angels and being able to interact with the souls of the deceased through dreams.  The grandparents were especially moving for me, as they reminded me of my grandparents that have passed on.
• I liked the descriptive settings.  The main story takes place in Alaska during winter.  The author does a marvelous job conveying the darkness and biting cold that envelopes the population during the long, dark days.  I could totally relate to the brisk, arctic wind and the sting of its chill especially while Lizzy shivered in her car waiting for it to warm.  Anyone who endures a long winter will be able to feel it's frosty breath blowing out of the pages.  I also enjoyed the fun trips that I took with Lizzy and Michael in her dreams.  I soaked in the sun of Hawaii, visited the lake, ice skated and snowmobiled.  Ms. Renae does a fabulous job taking the reader along on the journey.  
• This book can be purchased for the low price of $1.99 as an ebook on amazon.com (this price reflects the cost at the time of this review 2/12).  For less than two dollars you can read this romantic, emotional story of true love.  That is a bargain! So click the link (the book cover) and head over to Amazon and get your own copy.

And the Not So Much:

• Ms. Renae spins an intriguing tale, filled with lovely metaphors and intricate descriptions.  For the most part the story flows nicely but there are some stumbles over a few grammatical errors and falling into the passive voice, which slows down the pace somewhat.  There was a bit of redundancy especially when it comes to tears and crying.  These are slight mistakes that do not mar or overtake the plot.  I am certain with a little polish and further editing, Ms. Renae will tighten up her writing in her next outing. 
• The story line is not particularly fresh or innovative.  The concept of a ghost reaching back from the other side is reminiscent of Ghost (one of my favorite movies).  Though the idea of the novel is not original, the author does spruce it up with the inclusion of other supernatural entities as well as an Alaskan, shaman, ghost whisperer, Lucy Crow.  I was excited when I met Lucy, I just wished that she had a stronger presence in the story.     

If you are pining for a touching story of a boy and a girl, who find their love can transcend the boundaries of mortal existence, then In My Dreams, will satisfy your longing.  Michael is an angel that you will cling to, as he fights to protect his girl. This book reminds you that love is forever, no matter the circumstance.  A sweet story that those with a sentimental heart will thoroughly enjoy.  Pick up your copy today while you can at a low price. 

Favorite Quotations:

"The sky was painted in pale lavender, and all the spruce and pine trees were flocked in white. "

"Sparkling glitters of snow fell from the sky. I closed my eyes and felt the cold flakes melt on my face."

“I’ll never leave you. I’ll always be here,” he said placing his hand over my heart. “Always remember that. Forever in my heart.”

 I won a copy of this book from Courtney over at Fuzzy.Coffee.Books. 

Tomorrow a guest post by the author, Cameo Renae and a giveaway! See you there!

The Vanishing Game by Kate Kae Myers

Seventeen-year-old Jocelyn follows clues apparently from her dead twin, Jack, in and around Seale House, the terrifying foster home where they once lived. With help from childhood friend Noah she begins to uncover the truth about Jack's death and the company that employed him and Noah. Jocelyn's twin brother Jack was the only family she had growing up in a world of foster homes-and now he's dead, and she has nothing. Then she gets a cryptic letter from "Jason December"-the code name her brother used to use when they were children at Seale House, a terrifying foster home that they believed had dark powers. Only one other person knows about Jason December: Noah, Jocelyn's childhood crush and their only real friend among the troubled children at Seale House. But when Jocelyn returns to Seale House and the city where she last saw Noah, she gets more than she bargained for. Turns out the house's powers weren't just a figment of a childish imagination. And someone is following Jocelyn. Is Jack still alive? And if he is, what kind of trouble is he in? The answer is revealed in a shocking twist that turns this story on its head and will send readers straight back to page 1 to read the book in a whole new light.
Hardcover, 353 pages
Published February 14th 2012 by Bloomsbury USA Childrens

 

Four Stars: An exciting, thrilling page turning mystery that will keep you guessing until the final pages. 

Jocelyn is still reeling from the death of her twin brother,Jack. Two weeks earlier, he perished in a car crash. Jocelyn is slowly trying to pick up the pieces, until an unexpected letter arrives in the mail.  The letter is signed Jack December.  An alias, her brother used as a kid when he left her clues for treasure hunts.  Jocelyn drops everything and grabs onto the slim hope that somehow Jack is still alive.  She quickly finds herself plunged into a exciting and dangerous hunt to solve the puzzle that hopefully leads to Jack.  Unfortunately, the trail of clues starts at the one place she vowed never to return, Seale House.  Seale House is her former foster care home, where she and Jack lived for a brief time when they were twelve.  For the most part, her time there was horrible.  She has blocked out her memories of many of the events that occurred while living under that dark roof.  Now, she finds that in order to unravel the clues and find Jack, she must sort through her memories of the past.  Her first step is to contact Noah, another former inhabitant of Seale House, who was once Jocelyn's and Jack's best friend.  Will Noah help her after their unfortunate parting?  Can she unravel the clues in time to find Jack? 

What I Liked:

• If you are looking for a thrilling mystery novel that will keep you riveted, then I highly recommend you pick up The Vanishing Game.  This book is an exciting page turner, filled with plenty of mystery, intrigue, twists and a bit of creepiness.  The story will keep you engaged and guessing on the final outcome to the very last pages.  Hang on for the ending, it packs a big surprising punch! 
• I thoroughly enjoyed chasing down all the clues with Jocelyn and Noah. I was amazed at the creativity and ingenuity of many of the pieces of the puzzles, solving this mystery was not an easy feat for Jocelyn and Noah.  
• I liked uncovering and understanding the keys to Jocelyn's past, especially when you get to the end and see how all the pieces fit.
• I appreciated the creepy aspects of the book.  I wasn't sure if there were ghosts or some other kind of paranormal element. There are definitely some scenes in this book that are a bit scary, which adds to the overall mysterious theme of the book. 
• This book is full of surprises.  There are so many plot twists.  This book is a page turner.  You will keep reading just because you can't wait to see what happens next! 
• I admired the characters of Jocelyn and Noah.  Both of them showed remarkable courage and fortitude, in spite of the difficult burdens of their pasts.  I liked watching the two rediscover and rekindle their old friendship. 
• The ending.  Wow! It certainly will surprise you.  It has a bit of an Alfred Hitchcock type feel to it.  Hold onto your butt! Those final pages will blow you away! 

And The Not So Much:

• Following the trail of clues was definitely one of the highlights of the novel, but there were a couple of times I have to admit that they were a little far fetched.  No matter, it was still lots of fun.
• This book employs flash backs to explain some of the occurrences in Jocelyn's past and how they connect to the puzzle.  I liked the use of this technique but there were occasions when the insertion broke up the flow of the story.
• While I was astounded at the final revelations and the solving of the mystery, I can't say that I completely bought into the final explanations, such as the bite marks.  It definitely stretched beyond believability.  It was still a great twist though. 

The Vanishing Game, is a terrific debut novel.  If you are looking for a book that is exciting, thrilling and engaging, then you will love this one.  Set aside some time to read it, because once you immerse into the mystery, you will find yourself reading fast and furiously to solve the mystery.  Hang on for an astonishing finish, that may leave you scratching your head.  Kate Kae Myers is an author to watch.  I can't wait to see what else she has up her sleeve.  

Favorite Quotations: 

"Life is a series of shallow breaths.  And in any breath, everything can change."

"Since then, everywhere I went the pain of losing him went with me.  It wore me like a backpack, slapping a rhythm of heartache against my soul with each step."

"Shadows began to glide in and out of the windows like dark, filmy bats."

"The flames etched his face with flickering tattoos."

"During the last few years I'd tried to forget what it had been like when life took a group of frightened children through the looking-glass, into a world of lunacy."

"Hey, Captain Solo, I'm a big girl now and can handle myself outside the Millennium Falcon."

"Light-hearted, I began falling down the deep well of love. I hoped with all my heart that nothing happened to ruin it."

A copy of this book was kindly provided to me by Bloomsbury USA Childrens via NetGalley in exchange for an honest review. 

Friday Forecast

Happy Friday to Everyone! Once again it is time for what has become a favorite feature on Rainy Day Ramblings, Friday Forecast.  Every week I feature some of the hot new titles that are scheduled for release next week, along with
the weather forecast for Portland, Oregon.  As always I want to hear what book you are desperate to get your hands on and what the weather is like where you are this weekend! Now this weeks forecast:

Click on any of the covers for more information.  A great bunch of books this week.  I am dying to read A Perfect Blood by Kim Harrison, I am a big fan of The Hollows Series. I also want to snag a copy of The Catastrophic History of You and Me, thanks to the great review posted by the lovely Maja over at The Nocturnal Library. 

This weekend's weather forecast: 

Saturday High 48 degrees low 37 degrees partly cloudy chance of showers.

Sunday High 48 degrees low 39 degrees partly cloudy chance of showers. 

Have a great week everyone!

Jessica Dates the Dark Side Tour with Beth Fantaskey

Yesterday I reviewed books 1&2 plus the novella in Beth Fantaskey's series Jessica.

Jessica's Guide to Dating the Dark Side, tells how
Jessica Packwood discovers she is a vampire princess, betrothed to the powerful Lucius Vladescu.  Jessica must come to terms with her new identity but will she marry this handsome stranger, whom she just met?

Jessica Rules the Dark Side, picks up shortly after Jessica's wedding.  Jessica is struggling to come to terms with her new found role as ruler.  A treacherous betrayal occurs and Jessica finds herself in a hurried race to solve the murder mystery and save her beloved Lucius before time runs out.  

You can check out my reviews here. 

Today I am happy to welcome Beth, author of the Jessica Books and Jekel Loves Hyde, to Rainy Day Ramblings with a short post on writing. Here is Beth:

One of the most common queries I get as a writer is, “How do I become an author?” That’s a pretty darn broad question, but one that I actually think I have a decent – if sometimes unwelcome – answer to. And that answer is... Practice.
(I told you it might be unwelcome!)
In my admittedly humble opinion, if you want to write for a living, the best thing you can do is sit down every day and practice, just like you’d practice piano if you wanted to be a concert pianist, or baseball if you wanted to be a major league star.
I sometimes get the impression that people think the ability to write is either something you possess, or don’t possess, naturally. That if you have it in you to write a novel, you’ll sit down and it’ll flow out. And I’m sure there are some genetically gifted people for whom that happens – lucky them.
But that wasn’t the case for me. I wrote for twenty years, professionally, before even trying a novel. I was a political speechwriter, a journalist, and then a short-story writer before attempting a long work of fiction. And every day that I sat down at my keyboard, I learned something new about the rhythm of stories, pacing, how to create dialogue and drama...
To me, there’s no substitute for that kind of practice. You can read books, and that’s also a great way to learn, but until you actually write – and repeatedly – that’s like watching a soccer game and hoping to become David Beckham.
I’m not promising that everyone who practices will become a published author, any more than I could guarantee that you’ll become David Beckham just by kicking a soccer ball every day. For one thing, there’s a certain amount of luck involved in the achievement of just about any dream. But you sort of have to admit that you’ve got a lot better shot if you put in the time. So if writing is your dream, I encourage you to go for it. If you really want it, it’s fun, anyway – a lot less tedious than doing piano scales when you were, say, five.
And for those of you who are practicing, and trying, and dreaming... I wish you much luck, success, and – most of all – happiness as you work. Best wishes! 

Thank you Beth! Now as part of the Jessica Dates the Dark Side Tour I have a question for you as a part of a chance to win autographed copies of both books in Beth's Jessica Series.  To enter you can visit each of the participating blogs and answer the question for each post.  Post all your answers on the tour website here.  Good luck! Here is my question:

Who is the maid of honor at Jessica Packwood's wedding?

If you need some help you can check Beth Fantaskey website. Click on the tour banner for further details! Thanks for stopping by today! 

Rainy Day Ramblings Winners

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Congratulations as well to Yvonne L.  she was the winner of Amy Lignor's Until Next Time. 

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Thank you to everyone who stopped by and entered.  Stay tuned for more great giveaways!

Jessica Series by Beth Fantaskey

 

Jessica Rules the Dark Side (Jessica #2) by Beth Fantaskey

 

It’s one thing to find out you’re a vampire princess. It’s a whole other thing to actually rule. Newly married Jessica Packwood is having a hard enough time feeling regal with her husband, Lucius, at her side. But when evidence in the murder of a powerful elder points to Lucius, sending him into solitary confinement, Jessica is suddenly on her own. Determined to clear her husband’s name, Jessica launches into a full-scale investigation, but hallucinations and nightmares of betrayal keep getting in her way. Jessica knows that with no blood to drink, Lucius’s time is running out. Can she figure out who the real killer is—and whom she can trust—before it’s too late?
Hardcover, 309 pagesPublished
January 10th 2012 by Harcourt Children's Books (first published October 19th 2011)

Four Stars: The sequel is better than the first.  Watch Jessica transform into a powerful, vampire princess as she races to solve a murder mystery. 

Jessica is busy settling into her new life as the wife of the powerful, vampire prince, Lucias Vladescu.  The two are desperately in love.  Jessica is struggling with her new role as a ruling vampire princess.  She shirks away from some of the more difficult aspects of her calling, not realizing the potential dangers of showing weakness.  Lucias, understands all to well the need for Jessica to step up and accept and assert her new powers.  The two hope to go before the vampiric council in order to become king and queen.  Unfortunately, before that date a catastrophe occurs.  One of the vicious Elders challenges Lucias' authority and then the next day he is found murdered.  Worse, Jessica and Lucias find that someone has framed Lucias for the murder.  Lucias insists that Jessica follow the law and have him imprisoned.  Jessica learns that incarceration for vampires accused of treasonous crimes involves no blood.  Without the vital blood, Lucias could die in a week.  Jessica finds herself thrust into the position of head ruler.  She must assert her power, while she desperately tries to uncover the true perpetrator and save her beloved husband.  Plunged into the treacherous and cruel world of vampire politics, Jessica learns quickly to heed her dead mother's written words, "Trust no one." Can Jessica seize power and rescue Lucias?

What I Liked:

• I was thrilled to watch the metamorphosis of Jessica into the powerful Princess Antanasia.  In the beginning, Jessica reverts back to the timid teenager we first met in Jessica's Guide to Dating the Dark Side.  She is demure and fearful and unwilling to perform all of her duties.  As the story unfolds, Jessica is forced into her new role and she eventually rises to the occasion and becomes a strong, competent leader. Her growth is amazing.
• I liked the added perspectives of Mindy and Rainero, Lucias' cousin.  The pair provide some comedic relief.  Mindy with her arsenal of magazine tips and witty dialogue is a fun addition.  Rainero, at first meeting is an unemployed, long haired, disheveled surfer bum, who wears terrible t shirts, but he has some surprises in store for the reader. He quickly became my favorite character. 
• I liked that this book is a departure from its predecessor.  The story follows Jessica unraveling a treacherous murder mystery.  There are many twists and turns along the way.  I was glad to see it left the teenage high school scene behind and moved into a more mature, complex plot.
• I appreciate that Ms. Fantaskey's vampires fall in line with the more traditional ideas of vampires.  They are far from the romantic versions we have grown accustomed to in today's literature.  Instead, the vampires in her world are cruel, calculating and vicious.  
• I liked finally getting to know Lucias.  I struggled with his character in the first book, but this time he drops his shields and lets us inside his heart.  His passionate feelings for Jessica are remarkable.  Not to mention he is a regal and capable ruler.  Again his dialogue is told in letters or emails, which I like.

And The Not So Much:

• I enjoyed the addition of Mindy to the story but I didn't like the switching of narrative view points between Mindy and Jessica, I found it to be distracting.  I liked the use of the emails for Lucias' and Rainero's view points.  The email dialogue worked well and fit seamlessly into the story vs. the transitioning narration.
• The book is a little over three hundred pages, but for some strange reason, the author divides it into over a hundred chapters.  Often times a chapter concluded abruptly.  I felt that all the chapter breaks broke up the flow. This book would have been much better without all the chapters.
• I felt the final explanations and revelation of the murderer was a bit hasty.  Some of the details were brushed over and I was a little troubled by this.  I wanted a bit more break down of the motives and actions behind the killing.
• I like Ms. Fantaskey's vision of vampires but I think she needs to flesh them out a bit more and describe their genetic abilities and powers if any.  Right now I have numerous questions regarding the characteristics of her vampires. 

Jessica Rules the Dark Side, was a surprisingly, good departure from the first book in the series.  This book leaves behind the teenage antics of high school and thrusts us into the dark, vicious world of vampire society.  This book is a great murder mystery. I enjoyed watching Jessica step up and accept her birth right and face down some of the menacing Elders, who want to see her fail.  If you are looking for a new vampire read, try this book.   

Favorite Quotations:

“Fear is the worst kind of grave, because it buries one alive.”

“I love you for eternity---and we will weather this small and temporary storm.”

“All things become stronger in sunlight and wind, yes?”

The Wedding of Antanasia Jessica Packwood and Lucius Valeriu Vladescu (Jessica #1.5) by Beth Fantaskey

Four Stars: This short little novella has everything you love in a good wedding.

 

This short novella can be read for free on Beth Fantasky's website.  You can read many of the behind the scenes clips and check out the voting that helped shaped the final story.  The wedding dress pictures are a must see (click on the photo to see the other options).  The picture of the dress that Jessica wears is to die for!  This novella picks up shortly after the end of Jessica's Guide to Dating the Dark Side.  Jessica is busy planning for her big day.  She and Lucias are head over heels in love.  Finally, I grew to understand and like Lucias in this chapter.  Mindy arrives with her Cosmo tips and makeup and hair styling equipment.  I was glad to see that she and Jessica mended their fences.  The ceremony and rituals that go,into the wedding are interesting and different.  This is a quick, fun read. Especially for the romantics who love a good wedding. I highly recommend you take a minute and read it before delving into book two: Jessica Rules the Dark Side. 

Jessica Dates the Dark Side(Jessica #1) by Beth Fantaskey

The undead can really screw up your senior year ... 

Marrying a vampire definitely doesn’t fit into Jessica Packwood’s senior year “get-a-life” plan. But then a bizarre (and incredibly hot) new exchange student named Lucius Vladescu shows up, claiming that Jessica is a Romanian vampire princess by birth—and he’s her long-lost fiancé. Armed with newfound confidence and a copy of Growing Up Undead: A Teen Vampire’s Guide to Dating, Health, and Emotions, Jessica makes a dramatic transition from average American teenager to glam European vampire princess. But when a devious cheerleader sets her sights on Lucius, Jess finds herself fighting to win back her wayward prince, stop a global vampire war—and save Lucius’s soul from eternal destruction.
Hardcover, 351 pages
Published February 1st 2009 by Harcourt

Three Stars: A book with a new presentation on teenage vampires.

 

It is the first day of school for Jessica Packwood.  She is ready to start her epic senior year.  Hopefully, she will create some wonderful memories, lasting friendships and even date Jake, the handsome boy down the road.  Her morning begins with a rather strange encounter as she waits for the bus.  An eccentric boy wearing a long black cloak watches her from across the street.  Great, her first day of school may end up in a kidnapping or some other unspeakable horror, all because her parents insist on her taking the bus because it lowers environmental emissions.  Thankfully, her big, yellow taxi arrives before there is an incident.  As she settles down next to her best friend, Mindy, she hazards a glance out the window and sees the unusual boy standing in the road, Jessica swears she hears him call her given Romanian name, (that no one knows) Antanasia.  Jessica arrives at school and she manages to push the unsettling encounter from her mind.  That is, until the enigmatic boy turns up in her class.  Who is this intruder in that irritating outfit? Events take a turn for the worse when her mother finds out about the young man and invites him to dinner.  Now her crazy stalker is coming to dine on vegan fare at her home.  Could her day get worse?  Yes...turns out, Lucias Vladescu, is her betrothed, from Romania.  It gets even more weird when she finds out he is a vampire prince and she is a vampire princess and she was promised in marriage in her infancy, as part of a pact to end the feuding between her vampire family and Lucias' family.  There is no way that Jessica is going to have anything to do with that werido, let alone marry him.  Or will she? 

What I Liked:

• I loved the transformation of Jessica.  She first appears as a shy, somewhat awkward teenager, uncomfortable with her outward appearance.  Under Lucias' discerning eye, Jessica blossoms into a beautiful, regal capable princess. 
• I liked delving into Lucias' character through his letters to his uncle.  I thought this was a clever way for the reader to gain an inside view on his impressions of America, feelings toward Jessica and his obligations among other things.  These letters were a perfect way for the reader to hear Lucias' voice without resorting to the dual point of view.
• I liked the Vampire Guide that Lucias presents Jessica, in order for her to understand and accept her vampire heritage.  I just wish there was more of it. 
• I appreciated the way Ms. Fantaskey married some of the traditional ideas of vampire lore with her own modern day ideas.  
• One of my favorite parts of the novel was the trip to Romania and the Carpathian mountains, the home of vampires.  The presentation of Romania was the perfect, foreboding vampire backdrop.  
• I liked the appearance of Jessica's funny and sympathetic vampire uncle, Dorin.  His character was fun, I just wish he was more prevalent. 

And The Not So Much:

• Unfortunately, I never really fell under the spell of Lucias.  At first he comes across as conceited, difficult and privileged.  As the story unfolds there were times when I started to like him, for instance when he built Jessica up with kind genuine praise.  I especially loved his ideas on chivalry, so refreshing.  These brief flashes gave me hope that I would grow to love him, but alas with his evolution at the end, I was disheartened and I just could not like him wholeheartedly.
• I picked up this book expecting it to be a light, funny read.  The book starts out that way, especially with Jessica's witty commentary.  Somewhere along the way the book takes on a darker tone, while that necessarily is not a bad thing, I found myself wishing for more of the fun dialogue. 
• There is a particular scene in the book that did not work for me.  It was when all of Lucias' uncles arrive from Romania and the dine at a popular local steakhouse.  Except they don't eat, (the vampires in this book do eat human food except in this instance) instead they order a plentitude of practically raw steak and then proceed to slurp out all the bloody juices and leave the meat.  Okay, this is a big fail for me, if vampires are clandestine and trying to protect their true identities, a group of creepy, old men slurping steak drippings in a restaurant would certainly tip off the staff and other patronage that there was something not right about those men.
• This book has a predictable outcome, despite the author's best intentions to add drama and surprises. 

Jessica's Guide to Dating the Dark Side, is a book that was far different from my expectations.  Unfortunately, it was one of those stories that just didn't quite grab me.  It is a good read, but nothing spectacular.  This book will appeal to those who are fixated on vampires, but it didn't quite speak to me in the way I was hoping.  I wanted a comedic, entertaining read, while this book does have some funny aspects, there was not as much as I was hoping for. 

Favorite Quotations:

"The first time I saw him, a heavy, gray fog clung to the cornfields, tails of mist slithering between the dying stalks."

"When I am abducted by the menacing guy under the tree, Dad will probably insist my face only appear on recycled milk cartons."

"You'd be surprised how disgust turns to lust."

"Women should have curves, not angles. Not points." 

"Okay, I was seriously buying them all thesauri for graduation."

"Tourists?  Pooping in my castle? I bet nobody pooped unauthorized in the Vladescu estate."

"The gown curved over my breasts, then fell as sharply and abruptly as a waterfall cascading over a Carpathian cliff, ending in a sweep of silken train that swished like a whisper when I walked. Like the whispers that no doubt followed any woman who dared to wear this spellbinding dress."

                Come back tomorrow for a guest post from author, Beth Fantaskey!